I have grown up knowing that all I ever want to have deep down, is Love.
I am nearly 24 now, and I feel like I haven’t experienced the feeling of love as how I imagined it to be. I want to be held tightly, not ever to be let go, to share a connection with someone and feel it forever, to go through experiences with that person and to truely know that both I and that person would want to spend as much time as possible together.
God, I spend my time looking for this, I think too much about it, and when I don’t have it, I want it and ask why don’t I have it, I know by doing this I’m pushing back what I most want. Help me to get further to what it is I so badly want to feel.
O God, I thought I felt this and made this connection with him this time last year, and he said he did too, but why did everything turn out this way. Why am I now in a place where he is not with me anymore and I am lost, but still wanting to feel that same Love. I know that with him, it can’t be the same, but i still think about him. Please help me to understand why things turned out how they did, and help me to free myself from that pain so that I can attract that which I want most,
So I can become whole again and find a whole person that is ready to commit and accept real love in all its forms.
Lord, I ask for strength and patience to develop into the person I want to be, to feel what I know is true and to find Love.
There is no other god but thee, The Help in Peril, The Self Subsisting.
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