Dear God

Sometimes, I don’t understand. I know You throw these things at me so I can learn. But what is it that I’m supposed to learn when I tried so hard and I just ended up hurt? I only had good intentions and now I’m broken. And he’s doing fine. Better than fine. I know I shouldn’t compare myself to him but it hurts so much. I tried my best to make him happy and he gave up on me. How is all this heartbreak what I deserve? And how come he doesn’t hurt at all?

Regardless… I am so thankful that You showed me that he wasn’t for me. I just pray that I am happy again. Help me be strong and let him go. I love him, despite the hurt, and I just want to love him enough to let him go and be happy for him. Give me strength, please. Please help me let him go.