Dear God, I need you.

I am hurting. I cannot move on. I am lost where you left me last year, I am not as strong as you think I am, I don’t deserve the credit you are giving me because I know how much I can handle, and even when you tell me that you are in control- I want to believe that you are doing this for a greater plan, a plan that is beyond my comprehension but then I break down over and over again and the tears won’t stop flowing.

I am afraid, and I am weak. I have cried time and time again asking you to provide me with answers to all of the questions I have- and you know my heart, you know how much I need you in my life, but every time you show up you my life becomes heavy, and this burden you have placed upon me is not something I can handle right now, and I wish you would stop thinking that I am strong enough because I know I am not. Lord, take this burden and help me to deal with my circumstances.

I am lost with and without you. I don’t know what to do.

I just know that I cannot handle this right now.