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All i want is to love myself

Dear God,
I feel stuck. I want to be myself. I hate this low self esteem that I have, it is stopping me from being myself. I care so much about what people think of me that I don’t value what I think of myself. I put other people’s opinion over myself and let everything people say go to my heart. I am exhausted.
I come across as quiet, passive, shy, and unfriendly sometimes. This is not me. Deep down inside I do know who I am, and I like that person a lot. She’s kind, sweet, funny, sarcastic, loud, silly, crazy, outgoing, and has a spark to her. I love this person. Sometimes I am myself but when I realize it, i feel so vulnerable that I immediately shut down and go back to being quiet. I want to be unapologetically myself no matter who is watching or listening. I want to be comfortable dealing with people who don’t like me because I know that no matter what, I will encounter people who wont like me and that’s okay. I want to be sure of myself and attract great people. I noticed that people who are themselves and do what they love attract so many good people. They are literally a people magnet. I want that. I want to love being me. Please help me change my heart and appreciate myself. Let me be my own best friend before anyone else. I want to live my life freely for now on. God please help me become the person I know I am deep down inside. Guide me out of the dark so I can live my life for you even more. I want to truly love exactly who you made me.