Please just hear me God.

Dear God,
I haven’t talked to you in so long. Things are terrible and I hate to come back to you now. It was you and I for always. I’m sorry I broke that promise. I’m sorry I broke so many promises. I’m in college now and nothing seems to be going right. I have no close friends and I feel like a lost sheep. I have no idea what I’m doing with my life. Some days I’m happy but most are the days when I’m sad. Do you remember me? Do you still consider me as your daughter? I’m sorry I strayed away from you. Help me find my way back to the cross. God please help me to be what you want me to be. Help me rise from my self hatred. Tell me that you’ll be with me every step of the way. Tell me that I’ll make it. You know my dreams . you know what I need now. Send me a God fearing friend…or two. Help me find a good job God like last time. Only better. What do I tell you? I’ve wronged you so many times and I still come back. You have never turned your back on me. Not ever. Thank you so much for thinking that I am to die for. And thank you Jesus for dying for me. Keep my place in heaven safe will you? I can’t wait to hug you. But for now,help me fight this war. God maybe what I’m asking for is irrelevant but i know you understand. I’ve tried making friends but its hard. I just wanna break down and cry. And please God will you please do me a small favor? Please tell Gabe thank you for noticing me. I think he is the cutest thing ever. And…there are a lot of prayers on this website. Could you answer them God? Could you give these people hope? You are all they have right now and some of them are on the edge. Please help us all because I know that nothing is impossible when we include you in our plans; no matter how weird they may be. Thank you for not letting go of me and forgive me for lying, having bad thoughts, coveting, speaking I’ll of others, and so much more God. I’m just so sorry. I know you are surely the best thing that has ever happened to me and thank you for making me see yet another day on this earth. I praise your name even when I’m drowning in sorrow because I know you are all I live for. Humble me and make pure my heart and actions. I love you so much and please send me friends. Please. And a job. Thank you for all you’ve done for me. And keep Edwin safe so that we’ll see him again. I can’t wait to be by your side for eternity. In Jesus name I pray and believe. Amen.
Ps. I think you are amazing at what you do. Please keep the world safe and bless the leaders. God, its still you and I right? Forever and always!