I’m sorry

Dear God, I’ve made mistake after mistake and have dearly suffered. The man I thought you put in my life has turned emotionally and verbally abusive. He is sometimes the perfect loving man and others he is just mean. Financially I am trapped now because I moved in with him thinking we would get married but we didn’t. I suppose that is a blessing. But my children need a better example and deserve to live in a healthy home. The problem is that I still love him even though I need to go. But I live my children more… Dear Lord, I need you to open a door and give me the courage to walk through it. I am paralyzed by fear of making yet another mistake. I don’t know where to go….I have no family I can go home to, it’s just me and the kids, and one is going off to college and the other will be soon. My heart is breaking and my emotions are clouding my judgment. I’m scared and I’m sorry that I got myself into this because it wasn’t what honored you. You know what I need and what my children need even more than I do. Please help us. Help me to be a good mother and have wisdom. I just feel so broken that my head is locked in a spin cycle and I can’t think straight. You are my father and I really need my father to just tell me what to do right now so I can listen. I pray this in Jesus’s name, Amen.