Lord I did not cry yet

Dear God
Please do not let anyone else get hurt from IPL.
I need direction.
At this point I have done everything I know to do to stop others from getting hurt.
I am so weary of dealing with this mess.
It been one year and four months and my life is still mess bc of this.

I have not cried today.
I think I have been working on with bit of hope that you will heal me in time.
I know it will not full heal but any healing is always
I am still waiting on my test results.
I should be scared but I do not care anymore.
There is only so much one person can endure.
I clearly do not have Jesus of Nazareth strength.
IF i coudl borrow some I would be so grateful.

if plan is to release me and take me home please take care of my baby.
I have made lot of mistake this past year.
Please forgive my sins.
Help me forget about this IPL mess and move on with my life.
Keep my knee from buckling in th emorning when i see my IPL damage.
comfort when I cry and strong in front of my baby.
I am helping MElissa
In jesusname i pray
amen