Help me

Dear God,
I want to be happy again.
The abdominal pains are bad today but I do not care.
This weekend i could see how bad my situation is.
Please help me. heal me and help my knees not to buckle when i see my scars.
loosing hope, hanging on barely for my daughter.
please getting too weary.
I am sorry lord that i keep taking this burden instead of giving it to you.
did you hear me last night?
i am tired of this battle, it is too hard.
Oh father let this cup pass from me.
In Jesus Name I pray for help
Amen