Dear God

I am coming apart at the seams and so desperate for help and guidance. Yet I know if it comes to me I may turn it away not believing in it as my trust is completely diminished, and unable to accept the hand believing my own to be unworthy. I need to feel human again but I am terrified that the flood of emotions coming will drown me, that the pain will be more than I can stand. Please forgive me so I can forgive myself and show me the right path to take.