Love Matters

Dear God,

I don’t know what you’re throwing my way… Why you’re letting this divorce happen to me. I’m so heartbroken and I’m trying hard to move on, but I’m so confused. I still love my husband, I still want to be with him. When we took our vows, I meant every word of it. I don’t know what’s going to happen inthe future, I’m so lost and worried that if this thing goes through I’ll never be able to find someone again. He’s already moved on, says he doesn’t feel for me anymore; apparently he doesn’t even want to speak with me.. My life is all a jumble, and I’m thankful that I have my friends and family here to support me and to love me. Without them I would have gone on, and continued to feel that I was dying inside. I know that I haven’t been talking to you in this past year, adn maybe this is your calling to me— to get closer to you again, but did you have to make my awakening so harsh?

I pray for patience and understanding in this situation of mine. I pray for the ability to discern your will for me, God. I don’t know what else to pray for. I cannot change the way he feels about me, though I might try. I know you hear me, and are answering me, I just wish you would answer me a bit louder..