Dear God,

For the past few months, I have been pushing You away. I forced myself to not pray as much and told myself I did not need You as much. I am extremely sorry.

It seems like anorexia really has taken over my life. From waking up at 4am to exercise and throw out food that I’ve hidden to spending late nights throwing up everything I ate, I’ve hurt myself and what You have blessed me with.

I hurt my body by food restriction and throwing up anything else I ate. I hurt my friendships by hiding my scars and lying to them about my weight loss. I hurt my boyfriend by keeping secrets from him and avoiding him during mealtimes so he wouldn’t make me eat. I hurt my grades by focusing too much on my own appearance.

God, I am ready to recover now. I need You back in my life. I didn’t think Ana would distance me so much from you.

Please help me recover. I don’t want to hear Ana’s voice in my head anymore. I want to hear Your guiding voice instead. Please guide me into recovery and back into Your light.

Love, a broken girl.