A thousand hopes. A hundred dreams.

Dear Lord.

 Where do I begin? Of course theres my brother. Always in the back of my mind. Please keep him safe as he prepares to go through basic training for the US Army. And for my mother that she can stay strong. And for me O Lord. You know that I, and I alone carry the fate of my family’s happiness and success. As their last child I feel so much pressure. Pressure to be perfect. Pressure to be everything that Rob, Lyndsay, and Tommy just….weren’t. God, you know I feel it breaking me. I just want to scream or cry. Scream or cry for you, God. Always waiting for my prayers to be answered. I wait patiently for the day when you will call for me, to come join you in your Kingdom Of Heaven. Help. Simply help. God grant me serenity. God grant me anything. Forever in my heart, mind, and soul. I strive to better. I strive to do your Will.

Matthew 10:26-31

Amen