Dear God

People keep telling me i am exactly where you want me to be in my life right now and that i should be content. I will be turning 28 years old next month an somehow i expected to be further along in life by now… a career, a husband that you chose, a house and maybe even some kids. it really depresses me at times, please help me to be content or at least happy with where i am in life. Also i think if you could give me a better relationship with my mom i think that might make life a little easier while i wait on you. Sometimes i feel like every move i make irritates her and i’d be better off dead. help me to overcome suicidal thinking. help me to lose weight and be healthy. i recently stopped fornicating and started seeking you more, tell me why am i having all these problems now that i want to get closer to you? i know you are listening and i know you are there its just that sometimes i feel really alone. thank you for bringing me through and not letting me end my life at its lowest point. please keep me and my family protected as you know,we dont live in the safest neighborhood. it would be so nice if i didnt have to walk the streets in fear. please bless us to live somewhere more spacious and way more safe