Dear God,

Lord, I’m coming to you. These road blocks will be removed and I will find my way to you. But right now, I am so scared. One’s pain will never match up to the pain you received, but I’m sorry. I am in pain. My heart aches and I’m trying to find a way out. I just want to live in the dark. I don’t want to see the light. I need you, Lord. Pull me out of this. Do whatever it takes. I am at the point where I want you to take my life, but then again I don’t. I’m being selfish again. I’m sorry. I just want to be relieved of these adversities before I enter people’s lives. I want to enter people’s lives whole-heartedly and calm. Anger towards them will vanish with the power of God. You are almighty. You are awesome. You are worthy. I love you. and I want more of you.