Dear God,

I feel your presence everywhere I go. In my anonymous prayers that I send out, in my blogs on tumblr, when I’m cleaning, everywhere. I can feel my faith growing stronger and I feel you there. you are supporting me. You are my best friend. The one who will never leave or never judge. Giving my speech about the retreat I went on made me think about what happened and reignited the sparks and feelings. I failed you, Lord Jesus Christ. But now, I only live to serve you. Forgive me, Lord. I missed my online prayer yesterday night, but I prayed to myself before i slept. I try talking to you and praying every chance I get which is every night and whatever time I have that is free in between. There is no fear of you. Only spiders. and monsters. and shootings. and murders. But I am not scared of you. I can tell you anything no matter how bad it is. You’re guiding me. You always have. I think you made me go through those mis-happenings for a reason. To bring me where i am today. I am starting to become the person I am suppose to become. I’m living my life the way I WANT TO. What way is that? YOUR WAY. I want it that way. I’m glad I have fully accepted you in my life as well as commit myself to you. Thank you. I pray that you assist our family and answer their prayers. Open up their hearts as well as mine. You have given me a change of heart and I know you can do the same to others who are in need of you. I pray for my friends and josh. Help them all with their troubles and lead them as you are leading me. Relieve us from the feelings of jealousy. Lord, I honestly hate that feeling. It huts so much. So I pray for those who are feeling jealous. Let us be glad and thankful for what God has provided for us. These gifts and blessings we’ve received. I may not be fully spiritually grown, but I believe that there is no limit to that. I’m just going to keep on going and live my life for you. You are the alpha and the omega. This may be a short prayer, but you know the full out elaborated version already. I know you do. amen.