Dear God,

You alone Lord know what I’ve experienced. You give and you take away, but when will it be the time for you to give again? If there is something in front of me that I have not yet seen please, I beg you, open my eyes. Open my heart to experience the fullness of your unconditional love because my heart is empty and tired of being shattered countless times. It feels as though you punish me by taking away so many lives from me, to have this compassion in order to understand you.

Lord, I can’t take it anymore. I know I have constantly tried to strip me of myself, but now I just no longer want to feel like me anymore. My faith in Your Will is withering, my patience wears thin, my understanding of You, let alone my entire trust in you has left me feeling like Jesus on the cross saying, “My God, My God, why have you abandoned me?” Carry me out of this neverending abyss. If not Lord, I only ask that you have mercy on the souls who have gone before us especially in this passed year alone. I cry out to you, I long to be embraced by you. I don’t ask for a sign, but only strength by knowing your joy again. Maybe you sent me on this trip to have a step back to listen to you more closely. Thank you for every blessing of every day, regardless of the trials and tribulations you’ve given to us. Please, let the world fine true faith in you. This I ask in your most holy and blessed name. Amen.