Dear God,

I’ve given up on you so many times. I keep doubting, I keep telling myself you’re not real. I don’t know why, but I have. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry because you’re the only thing I know I can depend on. On Wednesday I decided to give my life to you. Every little detail of my life because I love you and I need you. I hope you still love me after all the stupid things I’ve done. Please give me the strength to leave all these people behind, all these people who don’t see you. God, I love you and I want you to be my true life until I die. I’m so conflicted by all these things. But I know I need you. Please help things get easier.