Dear God,
Some self control would be nice. Not too much, cos I still like to do things I know I shouldn’t but that I wanna, usually cos it makes for a good story afterwords. But maybe a little would be nice. Like.. enough to know when to say no @ unprotected? Yeah. I mean I never regret it, and I always love it, cos I love him soo much. I’m not the best kid, what can I say? I get off on doing things I’m not supposed to do? Maybe. But it’d be really nice to be able to look at him and think “I don’t care how much I love him or how good it’s going to feel, or how much we love each other or how perfect this moment in time is, or how sweet he is, or how pretty his eyes are, we are not going to do this” instead of “I really shouldnt……… fuck it”.
Thank you so much for understanding.
Love,
Rachel.