Dear God,

Please help me. My heart is in so much pain right now. I know all of this could have been avoided but God, you of all people know how I felt. And I may not have been thinking ahead but God, arent we supposed to stay in the present anyway? Please just help me forgive. Forgive so that I dont feel this pain anymore. God like really, this pain is affecting me physically. So please please please just hear me out.