Give me purpose

Dear God,

Oh, God, how great and wonderful you are. Creator of all things, from the tiniest atoms to the ever expanding universe. Your creation and limitations are vast and endless. I know that with you nothing is impossible, but God I feel so lost in my life.

I don’t know what to do, I’m stuck in limbo between momentary happiness, and unimaginable emptiness. God I just want to feel love, your pure and simple love. I crave to feel that burning fire in my heart once more. I’m tired of comparing my life with others and making myself feel worthless. I know with you no one is useless!

God show me my path in life. Please lord! I’m a young man who, if I should keep walking this path to nothingness, will perish. Please give me direction God. Jesus, Lord of Lords, please help this fragile mortal being. I don’t want earthly riches, I’ve spent a vast amount of my life and money perusing materialistic things and where did that pursuit brought me? Nothing, but a dead end full of empty promises and shattered hopes. That emptiness brought me toward my drug and pornography addiction. I’m tired of feeling empty, and seeing my world slowly comsumed by the darkness I’ve created.

Jesus have mercy on me and show me your grace. I submit myself to you. My heart and mind find piece whenever I read your words, and the words of the heavenly father.

Jesus, God in mortal form, please guide me. Help me find work. Help me find hope. I hold on to my faith that all things will come out for the greater good, but my dependence to drugs and porn and self loathing are eating me up inside.

Save me Jesus! Save me!!!!!

I cry as I write this. Please give me a reason for remaining microscopically hopeful in this mortal world. Show me my purpose, my path. Jesus, save me as you see fit. My Lord, my savior. I want to honor your father as well as you lord. Speak to me. I’ve spoken to you for so long, please speak to me, I want to listen to your words.

Thank you,

Ralph from Hialeah