Dear God,

Hi its me again. I hope your not tired of listening to me and my sorries. I’m sitting here alone, trying to find my heart. The heart I promised to give to You. But I can’t seem to find it anywhere because its lost now. That heart of mine has long been devoured by the ways of the world. By everything that separated You from every single one of us- Sin. I’m sorry. I wish I could turn back time. I wish I could have stopped myself from turning into the me I’ve become now. Sometimes I can’t even bear to look at myself. I hear people telling me all the time that God loves you and He always will. But I think to myself why would someone as great as You want to someone like me? Sometimes I get so frustrated. My whole life I can’t even for a second deny has been nothing but blessed. You’ve given me so much. I can’t ever thank you enough because I can’t give You anything God. I have nothing to give to You. I can’t even find the heart I was suppose to give to You. I tell myself again and again that I don’t deserve your goodness cause of the way I am. I’m not worthy. I wish God and I say it now I miss having You in my life again. When it was just US. But no matter how hard I try I can’t seem to fix myself. Theres nothing I’m good at theres nothing I can do for you at all. Why love me right? So why keep reminding me again and again that You do still love me no matter how I am? I could write books after books if I were to list out all the things You’ve ever done for me. I hate myself for always coming to You only when I need forgiveness. And that I’ve stopped talking to You now every night. I want that to be done with. I don’t want things to be the same anymore. Tell me how God. What am I suppose to do to get you back in my life.

Thank you.