Dear God

I contemplated whether to write this to you or not because i am so tired and just can’t see what my purpose is any longer. I loved her God with all my heart but you took her away from me. You took my children and many many other things. I try to remain positive but how can i when i have nothing left. Why did you take me off the path i was so happy to travel. It just seems that right from birth you have not given me much hope. With what i received as a child i decided to take the good road. Shouldn’t love mean something. It is all i have ever asked but i guess i have done something very wrong for you to take my love from me. I am over God, this is my end. For 2 years now i have tortured myself with the pain of losing someone, i know i can never replace. I can’t just accept anyone now, it has to be that one particular personality or i am over. I am kind of guessing that my path leads to my death now. I guess that is what you have for me. Everyday you send an new hurt my way. It doesn’t matter how hard i try or what i ask of with heartfelt love, it just doesn’t matter to you. It doesn’t matter to my angel guides or anything. I can’t take this anymore Go. I am sorry, please forgive me, i love you and thankyou for some great times. I didn’t expect my life to be this worthless. I love her God more then she will ever know but i am faced with never having her by my side again. What did i do wrong. What did i do.

This pain is just too much God, just too much. This will be my last letter.

Yours Faithfully

Sandon

PS Your wish is obviously my command, looks like i will see the other side sooner then i imagined, wherever that takes me.