Dear God,

I don’t know where to begin. I love you so much. I have tried to walk in your ways my whole life thanks to the wonderful parents who taught me. I have raised three daughters and five years ago my husband left me and my girls. Ever since then I feel like things have spiraled out of control. He was so verbally abusive to the girls and I. I put myself aside and tried to lift them up and take care of them, sometimes working as many as four jobs at one time. I am a writer and I left my job and took the two younger girls to Los Angeles to work and write. Well, now I’ve lost my job and my savings is dwindling. I came with the best intentions and an agent and five completed screenplays ready to take on the world. My daughters aren’t happy, I’m terrified and I’m afraid I may have to go back to Virginia and face the fact that once again I have failed. Please help me God. Please help me. I don’t want to go back to the abuse my ex-husband throws my way. It’s not physical, it’s emotional and it’s painful. I have met a wonderful man here in California, but we have not known one another long enough to marry or live together due to a need to take it slow for my daughter’s sake. I had such hopes of finally being free here in California, and nothing could be further from the truth. I am in pain and in fear and I need you now more than ever in my life. I have trusted you and your guidance in coming here, so I know you have a plan for me. I just need to feel safe at last. Please God. Help me feel safe for my daughters and I and help this journey be my road to freedom and a new life at last. I do so love you and I thank you for the gifts you have given me in this lifetime, I only ask that you heal my heart and help us make it. Somehow. Amen.