Dear God why don’t you want me to have a good job ?

Dear God, how many next right choices can I make ? Why do you not want me to have a job using the gift that you gave me ? How will I support my family ? For so many years I continue to try to trust you to do what’s best for me but just doesn’t feel like what’s best for me. for so many years I continue to try to trust you to do what’s best for me but , this doesn’t feel like what’s best for me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t go back to school and have one more student loan that I can pay. I feel hopeless and worthless . I need your help .