Dear Heavenly Father,

I don’t have the words. But I know You want me to put my best efforts and tell you what I feel. Lord, I have never been so empty. My heart, that was once so full of life and beauty and love and joy has become a empty, hard-cold stone. I’ve lost everyone God. Everyone. And I just don’t know what to do anymore. What’s wrong with me? Why do I do this to myself? Lord, please help me. I want to do something incredible in this world. I know that’s why I’m still here. I want to change people’s lives incredibly and make an unbelievable difference. I want to reach out to every breaking heart and comfort the hopeless. But lately, for some time now, I’ve kept myself in a little box. I’ve pushed everyone away, either by avoiding them or just with cold words. I’m miserable, and no one wants to be around me anymore. Forgive me Lord because I know this isn’t want You want from me. I let my emotions control me. I decided to build that wall of pride back up and keep everyone and everything away, including You. I thought I could do it on my own, that I didn’t need anybody, but the truth is Lord, I’m nothing without you. I know by being this way I’ll never fulfill the plans You have for me. So please, save me. There is a flood of sadness in me and my heart is close to drowning. I’m sorry, I love you. Tell me what I need to do to climb out of this hole. For now, I can only reach out to your hand and cling onto that last bit of hope. Guide me Lord, keep me strong. In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.<3