Dear Papa,

I feel very uneasy whenever I see him online. I remember him talking to me.. all those fun conversations we had… But because you asked me to.. I stopped talking to him… because made me so clear this guy was not mine and you did not wanted me to get involve with him any further… but It’s so uneasy for me and him.. both. I’m glad that he stopped contacting me & I know you will take care of him… but I wish there was no weird feeling to start with at all.

But Lord.. I knew a relationship with a boy was what I was looking for.. It was only my relationship with you. I want to honor you.. and you come first. I just couldn’t let a boy be in the way of me and you, Lord. I know everything will be alright.. but I still pray that you will take care.. and there won’t be any awkwardness when we meet again.

In precious name I pray,
Amen.