enough is enough

you endured me a lifetime of abuse and abandonment.  You took my father from me when I was too young to understand.  His family abandoned me because they hated my mother and he was dead… what use was I….  I do the right thing, I work my ass off and I take care of children that are unappreciative and NOT  MINE!!!  I give more than I receive everyday and I never take or ask for anything I dont think that I have earned.  God does hate me!!!  He had taken from me not only those I have loved but those I expected to take care of me and in return for all of the abuse and nonscense I get more crap!!!  I just want a go at life the way I intended!! Not the bs sacrificial do unto others bs… I put everyone above myself and I am drowning in squaller…..  God or Jesus or the Holy Ghost for that matter…..  I think the golden rule sucks and is an overrated piece of garbage…I think “ask and you shall receive” is a farce!  I just wanted a fair shake! Not to be abused constantly!!! You want followers….. well then you are the very being I despise the most… you dont care about anything other than your own thought… you want people to believe in you… well I have a lifetime of love and loss that will make a vegas hooker blush!  You supposedly dont give anyone more than they can handle????????  Well were the hell are you I am broken and lost!! Good looking out! So not fair or right!!!  If I break Iwant it to be because I accepted too much resposibility not because you thought you needed a good laugh and decided to test the waters!  I am a good person! Regardless of the shit you have put on my plate I have eaten everybite!  I am tired and FULL!!!!!!!!!!  Enough is enough

Dear Jesus it’s Me!!!