God, I am so painful right now, I really feel like my dream and future are falling apart.. because Steph left me, I really wish that I could know what is she really thinking right now.. And God, I don’t understand, this whole time You’ve been saying yes, she’s the one, and suddenly now, you just say lat her go.. I remember how everytime like how she is about to leave, and then you bring her back to me.. things just doesn’t make scene to me.. and now, again, that still small voice is saying, “Trust me, and let her go!” God what is happening?? I wanna trust You! But sometimes things just doesn’t make any scene! But God, I’ll trust in You! Doesn’t matter how things will come and go! I will trust in You! I will be a man of faith, as You want me to be! I will follow, I trust You God! I will! Please give me the strength to walk through this! It’s not about her or anyone, It’s a test of trusting You! If You say “Let go”, I will! And I remember how it began.. The wolverine vision, and You said it’ll be hard, and here I am, it is really hard! But I walk through this because of You, and it’s not about what she thinks, it’s about trusting You, believing You, and, Obeying You! Thank you Jesus! I love You God! So keep bringing them on! I know what to do next time! 🙂 Love You Jesus! 🙂 In your name I pray, Amen! 🙂