help me (us )

Dear GOD,

 I wanted to thank yoiu for all the things that you have done, and all of the things that you have not yet done……… You know the rest of my prayer . However. i am truely in a bind. most times i have to think that you are teasing me. im happy one minuet and WAMM! i am down again. how am i ever suppose to live if i always feel like i am dying. i know that you love me. but sometimes i wish that you would just sit directly in fronte of me and tell me what to do.

Can  i get an instruction sheet? this life is so complicated.

okay – well despite all odds i love you – i know when you are there and i know when you are not. be here for me now. im really in need. i been holding on for so long , im fearfull that i may just give up.

please fix this or give me the tools / directions and the will to fix things.

ps

despite the hard times i want to thank you for my baby boy.