I desperately need a financial miracle right now please!

Dear God where are You? Dear God I desperately need a financial miracle in order to provide for my son and I. I have truly been struggling spiritually, mentally, physically and worst of all financially since the death of my twin babies. Lord, I desperately need You in all areas of my life. I honestly feel that my last born is a blessing but sometimes I unintentionally allow the devil to creep inside my head and say that my precious son has a defective mom by default. Lord, I struggle with so many monsters in my head that tell me that I am worthless and that my son would be better off without me. Yet, I love You and him so much that I keep trying to push through bc I want to survive for him and to make him proud of me and proud to call me his mother. Dear God, I desperately pray for a financial blessing that would help alleviate and relieve me of a great deal of my stress and burden so that I’m able to be a more productive and present parent thus allowing me more time to enjoy my time left here on earth with my son. I’m thanking You in advance Jesus for having mercy on my life and my finances. To God be the glory. In Jesus name, I pray, Amen!