I Flipped The Bible to Psalm 142

Dear God,

I went through my own hell on earth when I was 21 and thought I grew up. I flipped to that psalm by chance when I was in jail and that psalm I felt was talking directly to me.  Here I am living in a different city with sometimes I feel my own guidance,yet in a dreamland sometimes.  I know like the sky is blue like I know I wake up with a smile on my face tomorrow you are there. I can’t help, but with not knowing the future of my health (diabetes) my family what lies ahead. So many concerns get in the way of seeing you like the clear blue sky. I know through my life you have carried me when things were tough. I feel somethings right here right now are in perfect vision of what you have for me in my life. Other things are not even close to your vision and I can’t figure out how to align them both. I’m a frog on a lily pad that is ready and willing to leap off in faith, but doubt my path ahead.

I pray to you lord to keep me in the right direction and always optimistic. Somethings in life are just too hard to bare and like David said in psalm 142 I cry out to you lord.

I thank you for my relationship with you!