I just want this to work out

Dear God, you know how worried I have been lately. I feel so alone. I feel like my person will never come. I don’t mean a husband because I am young, but a relationship in general. Now that I have started going to church, I found someone I like, all I have to do now is talk to him… It’s such a daunting task for me. This social anxiety is burdening me. I want to not be afraid to be me and just talk to people. I want to be able to flirt without having a panic attack. In the past, I have destroyed any possible relationships out of fear of something new. I am over that now and want to move forward.
Earlier this week you sent me a sign. You said that everything will work out, I was happy but despite that, I found it hard to believe. I am sorry for not trusting you in my daily life as much as I should. Please bless me with calmness to face my fears head on . Bless me with patience and faith that I can overcome my social fears and hopefully end up with a relationship. I really want this one. Please let this one work out for me. I am so nervous. I know there are more important things to worry about but this wont escape my mind. Please let this go somewhere. I don’t want materialistic things, just experience in my life that will enrich my soul. I want to experience love and everything good this world has to offer. I want to experience this. I don’t want this to be something in my head, I want reality! I just want something of this nature to work out for once. I know that whatever happens is meant for good. I trust you and know that you will guide me through this. I know that you will provide whether it is now or later. I just really hope this one happens now.