I see no good in my life

Dear God, I am at the brink of wishing my life to end. My whole life I have dealt with unfairness and difficulties in every area of my life. No matter what I do, how hard I work or how much I try, things have never worked out for me. My family has ruined every important thing in my life for their own personal interests. All of the people, who I thought were my best friends, have abandoned me after I hit hard times (despite my always being there for them when they needed me.) The woman whom I was with for over 8 years betrayed my trust and left me for guys she secretly had relations with when we were engaged. I did everything to make her happy. And in return, when she met some new friends, she began to mistreat me. She treated me like nothing. I was there for her when her family and friends abandoned her. And now that she made new friends and her family wants to act like the brady bunch, she decides that I am beneath her. She left me and immediately hooked up with a guy she had been secretly having relations with a few days after leaving me. She broke my heart. She broke my trust and she did everything in the book that she knew would devastate me. And she also left me with a $30,000 debt that I have been unable to pay off. I haven’t been able to find a decent job for over a year now and I barely have enough money to last two months more. I need help. I have nightmares about my ex every night. I am suffering from depression. And now I am scared that I will never find a good job and come out of debt. Nothing has ever worked out for me in life. I try so hard and i always end up in failure and disappointment. Every person who has used me, hurt me and betrayed me is living well and prospering. All while i suffer in lack, depression and mediocrity. Please God, give me a miracle to change my life. The hope and faith in goodness and your blessings in my life are fading fast. It’s been years and I see no light in my darkness. Please God, save me. Help me. I don’t have much time left. I am broken hearted, poor, unhealthy, alone, depressed and exhausted by the nonstop bad breaks in my life. I have literally never had a good break in my life. Just one bad situation after another. Please God, I losing hope. I am starting to wish for an end to my life. I have been praying and hoping for years, over a decade even. And still no help. Please God…save me.
I will try to keep my faith. I pray for a miracle. Thank you for whatever you have done for me. But I need a true miracle now. I am tired of being at rock bottom. I am tired of the hurt. God, I beg you to provide me with the money I need to change my life. My debt from a horrible past is keeping me from moving forward.