I want to have faith

Dear God, 

You know how hard I’ve worked at finding the difference between faith and wishful thinking.  I don’t want to live without Wade.  I have tried.  Each day I miss him more not less. Each day I love him more not less.  It’s not getting easier.  Please bring him home.  Please heal our relationship.  I have searched my heart and found that I truly love him.  I know because I can forgive him.  I don’t care about anything that has happened in the past.  I just want to move forward into the future.  So what am I praying for?  That you heal our relationship.  That you bring him home.  That you allow us to forgive one another our mistakes and our sins.  That you help us remember all the good that we share.  I just want to heal and move forward.  I just want him to call.  I don’t want to be sad any more. I don’t want to doubt anymore.  I know, in my gut, in my heart, that I love him.  I know that if I need to I will sacrifice what I need to for his happiness, even being without him.  I just don’t want to make that choice.  I just want our family reunited.  Please help us.  Heal us.  You can do anything.  I believe!