ii don’t want too

Dear God, 

I don’t want to lie to him anymore, I don’t want to hide this feeling from everybody, I wanted to be honest and true but what would be say? I know they said that his lost but I don’t want them to think that or even him. I’m so confused and lost that I don’t know what to do or even think anymore. also help me fight this temptation, take out this feeling, its taking over me and I don’t like the change. I’m scared God, I feel like I’m lying to everybody and that I’m drifting away from you and this change, I’m afraid. I need you, I wanted to be a independent girl with you by my side. I’m also sorry for everything that I have done wrong, please forgive me. 

Your lost daughter