I’m sorry for everything

Dear God
Please help me to know you as my friend and saviour,I’m so sorry for all the bad things I’ve done in my life and I know that I will only be happy when I really know you and not just about you! I’m sorry that I don’t read your word or talk to you each day but just come running to you when I need help desperately,I am so ungrateful for everything you have done for me and feel that you must be so disappointed in me.Lord,more than anything else I need to know that you love me and then I will find peace.i am so depressed right now and can’t find a way out so will you show me the way to go?thank you for my family and answering loads of previous prayers,a special prayer for my granddaughter tonight to keep her from harm and illness.dont let me fall Jesus!!
Love me x