Jesus,

You know I love Stephanie… and I know you want me to put her down for now, so I would focus on You again… and also to learn how to really love, and yet to control my emotions, but God, this is so hard, this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life… God please have mercy on me, I know you heard my cry… and I know you love me… but God teach me, I’ll learn… strengthen me up! Give me the love and mercy that I need from you for each day, and I know your grace is always sufficient for me! God I just want your love! Help me to put her down and then to lift you up, to be the king of my life, and the lover of my soul! Jesus please! I want more of you! I want more and more of your love! I only want you Jesus! Show me how great to just have you to be the lover of my life! Give me the love that Stephanie could never give me! God please lead me and guide me! I’ll never let you go! I love you Jesus! God, please continue to make me a better man, and a humble servant of You! God, she is not the most important thing of my life, and I proclaim that she is not! and she will never be! because God you are the only one! you are the only one that i should always love and to make special! I love you Jesus! I love you Jesus! I can say this for a thousand billion times! and I will never get tired of it! Jesus you are the king of my life! I will never let you go! Please fill me with your joy! and help me not to be selfish to the people that are around me! and God, please help me to see their needs! God please help me to be nice to Stephanie, teach me how to react with her, please sent your holy spirit to guide me and whisper in my ear to tell me how should i do and what should i say! God, I don’t want to say this but… if she is not the one, please help me to forget her quickly, I don’t want to keep waiting like this, or like hurting everyday, and God please take that feeling away from my heart! Jesus I just wanna focus on You right now! no nothing else! I love Jesus, you are the most amazing God! and you are the God that do like crazy things! and God please! use my life! and God I will do whatever it takes to be holy! and God i will only focus on you and nothing else and on one else! i love you Jesus! I LOVE YOU JESUS! Because of you, i can win this! and because of you, i will do this! no matter how hard it is, I will do it, so that i will be change! I don’t want to be like this for my whole life! I want change! I wanna be holy! did you heard me God? I wanna be holy! I wanna be the a Jesus freak! I wanna live on because of you Jesus! and you are the only reason why I am still here on this earth! God I can’t leave without you! and God, I love you! because I found out I just have to keep typing, because i am never satisfied of talking to you and to just express my feeling towards you! I want you Jesus! I only want you to be the king of my life! You are my everything! you are my everything! I love you Jesus! I love you Jesus! I just pray that you will keep bringing peace and joy over to my life! I can’t live without You God! I will not worry about my future anymore! because God, they are in your hands! I love you Jesus! please keep changing me, and to mold me! Please keep using me Jesus! I only want you Lord! and your sweet sweet love! 🙂 I love you 🙂 good night 🙂 amen! 🙂