Love of My Life

Dear God,
I spoke to you earlier today. My desperate words were carried away in the bitter cold wind and I am left hollow. God, I’ve not been faithful, but I have carried myself with honor and honesty – you know me and my heart. You also see my unbearable pain. I am struggling with uncertainty, confusion and desperate longing. You see how fully I love her, how happy we’ve made one another, how we are a family. She is the love of my life, I cannot bear the thought of walking this Earth without her grace. I’m begging you now, in this heartache, to move in her – bring to her mind the memory of love shared. Show her a glimpse of what we have in store, show her how deeply she runs through my veins. She is the color to my eyes and in her I have a home, a stability I’ve never known. You know the desires of my heart, and it has Nicole written on it. I am breaking now, and I long for a hope that we’ll share our home again. Please, God. Hear my prayer. I’ve rarely prayed, asking. I humble myself now, because nothing is more important to me than her. God. Please help me.