My life, my wife

Dear God,
Please help me!!! I have lost my faith I’m angry . I feel you are not listening. I feel I am not the man of God I once was.im am fighting for my marriage, I have hurt my wife deeply, by not talking , depression, not being able to keep a job. We used to do devotion together I quit( big mistake). Please soften my wife’s heart let her know I am trying to get better. Soften my heart so that I will have faith in you again. I can’t do the ministries I once did feeling the way I feel. Please comfort my wife, let her know how much. I love her and miss her, make he well before I can go home. Please have her stop this divorce,and let me have time to figure out me. Let me find the love I once had for you(God) . I miss both of you so much and feel like part of me is missing. Thank you for your blessings please help all how call out to you in prayer. I ask this all in the name of Jesus