Please Give Me a Sign Soon<3 …

I want to get church school over with soon as possible.. i want to be able to confess all my sins. How the agony kills me. I should have listened to mother when she kept asking me when i was younger too go to learn about you. I was stupid. I’m sorry for denying you, i will never ever again deny you. I haven’t got my communion yet, but i am getting it next month. I will accept you in my body. Finally, I know you’re always there with me, and hey, i am pretty sure you’re here with me right now. Though, I need you to tell me why in the world, the bad things happen to me. I don’t understand what i did. I know, for sure that you know what happened, i need you to give me a sign, i will listen, just give me a hint to anything. Tell me, if I should worry or not too worry. I feel as if, I am in denial? I will never doubt your power, you made me who i am. I am extremely grateful. I will wait, for your sign.. though I don’t think I can wait for too long. ” At times, like these, it’s so hard too feel blessed. ” I am sorry, but you know what I am going through. I need you more than ever, please be there for me. I can trust you with everything and anything. I have not confessed to you all my sins correctly yet or the real way, but i already feel as if you somewhat forgiven me. Honestly, I am not miserable, it’s just I don’t know. I was so happy before this situation came up. I really need you more than ever, and you know it.  What have I done to deserve this happen to me?.. Are you trying to tell me, that people change? Well, I already got that understood, but I cannot accept that fact. It’s so hard for me to understand. At this very moment, I am Happy. Why? Because I am watching Teevee.

In Jesus` Name , I pray.

Amen.

P.S. I love you, God.<3