Please Provide For Us

Dear God,

I have tried to be a good and kind faithful servant of yours, and in many ways I have failed. I am often quick to anger and hurt people out of my own pain and frustration. Times have been tough lately. I wonder if the pain my mother in law is causing me is the pay back for the wrongs I have done in my past.

Please provide peace in our house hold and let myself and my husband remain a loving team in the midst of the family stress. God please open her heart and mend our family so that we are not a divided unit, but a loving and caring family. Please bring his sisters back to the family and feel not so much angst and pain towards their mother. In turn, please open her heart to be kind and caring and less hurtful. Please quiet my tears at night and bring my heart to know that even if she does not love me I can find solace and comfort knowing that I do have many people, no matter how far away they are now, that do love me.

God, please provide financial stability for us, where the beginning of every month does not feel so much stress and anxiety. Also please help me realize that things are only that, they cannot make me who I am. Please cover only our basic needs. I am in need of a friend right now. I feel so alone and trapped in a house where the person I love is gone a majority of the time, and I live with a person who looks at me with disgust and disdain. Help me not say bitter words of hate when that is all I feel. Help me turn my other cheek and teach me patience. Show me a path to inner peace and happiness when all I feel is anger resentment and sadness.

Thank you for bringing my family relationship to a better place through these trials, however the distance has caused me great pain and loneliness knowing all I can do is hear their voice and not feel their warm embraces. Please God. I feel so alone and abandoned right now. That the weight of the world is on me, and I have no one to confide in. That I have to be strong for everyone else, when I want to collapse. I don’t know how long I can suffer in silence and be strong for the world when I am frightened in my heart.