sad birthday.

Papa God, today is my birthday. I don’t feel that it’s really my special day. I’m not even happy. I just can’t be okay with my mom and dad. I just hate some things and i really want to stop being so hateful. I’m not usually like this. I guess, this is the most miserable and lonely birthday i’ve ever had. and to think it’s my 18th birthday. I’m supposed to be happy together with my family but i just can’t. What just made me smile for today is when my bestfriends texted me. It seems that they are now the most important people in my life.I love them and i can only feel acceptance when i’m with them. I hate mom’s guts. I hate it. But i know they love me. Things aint just perfect. I know that no one is perfect even I myself. God, give me the strength to forgive and to forget everything that mom and dad did that has hurt me. Please give me enlightenment, the ability to control my feelings and to think only good things. I hope everything will change tomorrow. I hope that in time i’ll be able to forgive myself and my parents. I love you and i missed you… thank you for keeping me safe today and for greeting me happy birthday..i know You’re a little disappointed with me. I’m sorry for thinking that way and for thinking evil things. I hope you can help me renew my life. i love u.