Surrender

Dear God,

I thought I was going good. Until I found out that I’m messing things up and it’s going in the wrong direction. And you’re not there anymore. No I’m not talking about you, I’m talking about the other you. The ‘you’ that made me go crazy. History does not and will not recognize you. I told myself to forget about everything that weighs me down. Even stuff I’m hoping to see in time to come. And I came to a conclusion that I’m just making my own future up. No! I’ll stop right here.

I can’t do anything else and I’m giving up on myself. I’m letting You take over. I want you to take control. I feel helpless. But I know I can find my strength in You. Where is this going? Well I don’t know, that’s why I need You. You will give me what I need at the right time. And You’ll bring her to me. And everything will fall in its place because You’ve taken over. And I trust in You. Your joy is my strength, so please keep smiling and don’t get too tensed up Dad. I need You. Love You Dad.