the cure?

I pray for comfort in who I am, I want to be successful. I want to believe in love and to continue to accept his happiness. I want to love myself and everyone else along to the way. I want something beautiful to bloom between he and I. I want to live for you and want to be pure in your eyes. I want you too look at me and be proud of my work here on earth. I want to recruit someone into following your Holy name. I feel as if my sickness isn’t in my lungs, this sickness isn’t consuming my breaths. I feel as if the world around me is fighting harder to get inside my head, than I am fighting to receive your love. Please God, help me find the cure to this pain that is sitting in my mind, brainwashing the beauty right out.