WHERE IS THE LIGHT

YOU KNOW DEAR GOD THAT I LOVE YOU.. I CANT UNDERSTAND HOW YOU CAN BE SO FAR FROM MY LIFE WHEN MY HEART OPENS FULLY TO YOU AND YOUR GUIDANCE.. ALL I ASK IS TO LIVE A LIFE FEELING SUPPORTED AND NURTURED IN LOVE.. WHERE ARE YOU? I AM COMPLETLY ON THE LOWER RUNGS OF MY ABILITY AND ISNT IT STRANGE THAT I STILL CANNOT CRY? HOW I LONG TO WEEP.. YOU KNOW GOD, HOW SPECIAL IAM.. WHAT IS BLOCKING ME FROM MY POTENTIAL..?