One more chance.

I really glad I saw this Tumblr.

Dear God,
I haven’t been praying. I haven’t been going to church. I know I’ve been sinning a lot too. I am so sorry. It’s as if people tend to push you aside when things are going so well for them. Then when all fails and everything is bad. We look up to you. We ask you and talk to you. And then we apologize for what we’ve been doing wrong. We only come to you when things are bad, when really we should always come to you and follow you all the time whether things are good or bad. Everything that we have, you’ve given to us. But we take advantage of it and we don’t thank you enough. We don’t appreciate you enough. And yes, all of this is because things are not well with me right now. that is the truth. i’ve come to realize that I must try harder to always follow you and pray every night and thank you for everything you have blessed me with. God you are so good. Even though we treat you this way, you can see in our hearts that we are truly sorry and you are always forgiving. You constantly love us and forgive us. Thank you God for that. thank you so much. Again, I am so sorry.

Things are not well with me and my boyfriend. The man that you have blessed me with. the man that truly loves and cares about me like no other. The man that is the reason for most of my happiness. We used to pray to you every night. We always pray that you help us with our relationship. You help us grow and love each other more. We pray that you help us understand each other as much as we can. we pray that you help us become better people. We pray that you help us fight for each other and get us through the toughest of situations. And you have. You have always been there for us. You are the reason why we were together and the reason why we could get through many of the hardest times. Slowly, we started to drift away from you. We began to no longer pray to you. We began to longer than you every night for blessing us with each other. and now that things are all wrong and bad. I’m here alone running to you. God I’m not sure how you see this. But I trust in you. And whatever what may be the outcome for this situation, will only be the best for the both of us. Whether we get back together and fix things or not. You have something better for us in store. Maybe we weren’t meant to be. Maybe he deserves way better. Maybe I deserve something else. I’m not sure. But as of now. I only want him. I only want things to be better between the both of us. I feel like he is losing hope. But I’m staying strong and I feel like my strength would be enough for the both of us. I’m trying. I’m not perfect. I’m so far from it. But you know how good he is to me, its as if he deserves perfection. I can never be that. It is so hard for me to learn from my mistakes and to actually do something about it. To not mess up again. I can tell that he is so hurt. I can see that I cause a lot of pain for him. I want to be better. I want to learn how to be more understanding and to learn from my mistakes so I don’t hurt him. I messed up so badly. I want become his perfection even though that impossible, but I’ll try my best to be close to it. God, i know everything has been all said and done, but please God, help him find it in his heart to forgive me. I truly love him, but my actions say otherwise when I hurt him. I don’t mean to. I’m just being so selfish. Please help me most of all God. I need your love and support. I am sorry. I’m sorry for everything that I’ve caused…

Thankyou.