Teach me

Dear God,

First, I’d like to thank You for everything You’ve done for me. Throughout all of my trials, You’ve walked beside me and comforted me. I’m so glad for all You’ve blessed me with.

Now God, I can’t feel Your presence anymore. I know You’re there, but I can’t feel You… In previous times, You’ve revealed Yourself to me during my trials, and my soul rose to the heavens all those times; I felt invincible, that I would be able to emerge from my current tribulation triumphant. And I always did, thanks to You. Now, however, I can’t hear Your voice or feel You beside me. Didn’t You do this same thing to Job of the Bible? He cried out to You as he was beset with trials, and You didn’t answer, as a test. But in the end, Job triumphed and You rewarded him. I know You are there, but it’s so difficult to get through my troubles without feeling Your presence. Please help me, God.

Also, please teach me how to truly love. The only link I feel with You is this love that You’ve given me. You’ve already taught me to love others without expecting anything back. This loving without bounds is still a work in progress with me, but please mold my heart and allow me to love others even more. I know I’ll never be able to love the way You love us, but I’d like to be able to love as closely as the way You do. Even now, my heart aches with this delicious pain, this beginning of true, altruistic love for others. You are so great, God! I know that You’ll teach me to truly love, and that You’ll use me to help others. Thank You for everything. I’ll show You that I can pass these trials and emerge triumphant, holding a love for Your children that will never be extinguished.

Love, Melissa