Dear God,

I have so much to thank you for, and sometimes it’s so easy to jump up and down with the gladness of it, and then…

Sometimes its harder and I need a little strength to let go of the things I cling to all the harder knowing i shouldn’t. I find it hard to be greatful for the love and happiness i had, my past seems to mock my present, and I spend to long looking at old photos. 

Help me shake off this black cloud and move forward into the sunshine, and deserve the love I crave, and make as many people as I can feel loved and charished and happy, and not look to a man who may not exist, or one who has already left, for that happiness.