i am lost.

dear god.. I cry everyday. i speak to you daily and hear no answers but there is something inside telling me to keep trying. At the moment, i go to school and i study a subject i have no interest in only because i dont know what I like or what i am born to do. I surround my self with negativity which results in me taking drugs because it helps me accept my troubles. I have plenty of christian friends that have tried to help me but i take one step forward and two steps back. will you answer me god? I am ready to live the life you have planned for me. I need you god before i waste my life away.