Me Again God

Dear God,
I listened to Tony Evans and Joel Osteen again. Both messages said that I need to do what you have asked of me and focus on the spiritual, not the psychical. I tried today, someone reminding me by asking me what happened. Sigh. Please help me heal my skin, I dying inside everyday and forgetting is impossible.
Please end this, I need help…Show me the way out of this mess, In Jesus Name, I am begging, beseeching, imploring for divine intervention. Oh God let the medicine work. Please in God, What or How do I deal with this?
Please communicate with me, so that i understand . Help me focus on positive. Please help me for my daughter’s sake. I screwed up royally and I forgive me and help me, save your servant oh Lord.
Help me heal , please do not leave like this. Help me be on your path.
please let me know you hear my prayers. Amen